I pray for my family everyday. I pray that all my decisions are “God decisions” as I consider each child, each part of our day, my words, my actions. Yet, sometimes I am frustrated. Sometimes I am confused. Sometimes I am unsure.
Recently I was wallowing in my lack of understanding with a good friend. She proceded to ask me a million questions in hopes to find my spiritual gifts. I have no idea the website, but it sure seemed like a lot of questions. After the 1,098th question, she exclaimed Sherlock-Holmes-style, “I knew it! You’re hospitality!”
Huh. Hospitality? Really? “You’ve seen my house,” I remind her. “I knew you were going to be hospitality” she goes on, still proud of herself. OK. I do have people at my house for small group each week. I decided to believe her. I was feeling all right about hospitality. Then I shot myself in the foot.
“What are some other gifts?” What I was really asking her was “what don’t I have?” She emailed me the list. I have no idea what all the percentages mean, but I know better than to ask.
|78%||Missionary||1 Corinthians 9:19-23|
|67%||Intercession||1 Timothy 2:1-2|
|44%||Pastor||1 Peter 5:1-4|
|44%||Giving||2 Corinthians 8:1-5|
|22%||Prophet||1 Corinthians 14:3|
|22%||Music||1 Corinthians 14:26|
Aw. Bummer. Though I am truly blessed to see words like mercy, missionary, and healing at the top of the list, I was so bummed to see faith, wisdom and giving at the bottom. How bad is that? Faith. At the bottom. Giving. At the bottom. Wisdom. At the bottom.
I fought the urge to ask her to give me the quiz again. I didn’t ask for the site. I just prayed. I’m still praying.
Please God, grow me in faith, teach me to give, challenge me in wisdom.
Thank you, God, for a merciful heart, a home to share, and a wide wide world.